Somewhere Else

I find myself these days never living in the the moment. I am always off onto the next task while still involved in the current task.

When I am doing school with the kids, I am thinking about what I have to get done before dinner.

When I am cooking dinner I am thinking of what I have to get accomplished before putting booster seat to bed.

While I am putting booster seat to bed, I am thinking about "meeting time" with my husband - a new plan I have come up with so we get alone time each day to talk away from the kids. Why did I not think of this sooner. 17 years? Really?



While having meeting time with my husband I find myself thinking of the school plans I need to make for tomorrow and of course, while preparing the school work for the following day I am thinking of the book I would like to be reading instead.

I feel so guilty for never living in the moment, for not committing my full attention and spirit to each moment and the ones that I share each moment with.

Does this mean that I am not fulfilled? Am I selfish? Spoiled?


Whatever this means, I am thankful.

Thankful that I have seen it and will now be able to work on appreciating the moments I have while I have them.